Happy New Year!
I have just about recovered from the New years Eve hangover from hell! now i remember why it is i don't usually drink...! It was a fairly uneventful New Years Eve, i went into town with one of my sisters and we wound up at one of the late night disco/bar type of things, which was actually ok, i bumped into an ex that i haven't seen for several years, no flames re-kindled on my behalf though although i give him his due, he tried his best! I vaguely remember tottering up the road home at the end of the night in the rain and woke up, passed out still fully clothed on the sofa in the morning! I cannot beleive how expensive pubs are!!! My sister and i were both drinking wine - £3 a glass WTF, last time i bought a glass of wine in a pub it was around £1.70 - shows how often i go out boozing doesn't it... I don't think i could afford to go out on the razz even if i wanted to, grumble, grump!
The christmas tree has just been dismantled and launched at top speed back through the loft hatch for another year, it always leaves a huge gaping empty space in your lounge when it comes down doesn't it... I re-arranged my lounge as well at the same time i put the tree up this year and now i'm not 100% sure i like it, but no way am i moving everything back, it took me all day un-wiring the surround sound etc and then re-wiring it all back in, i can't stand cables trailing everywhere - i guess i'll get used to it, maybe i'll buy another plant or something, that should do it.
Still no word on this PSO job, i'm now certain my application must have got lost in the post as they still say they haven't received it.. i'll call again on friday and if still no sign of it, request another one, i desperately need to start this job asap in the absence of anything else, i just paid the rent today and i'm left with £17 to last me 2 weeks - hardly ideal, especially as i have an electric meter in my flat - no credit on meter = no electric and now there appears to be another bitterly cold spell upon us there aint no way i want to be left with no heating, even though they are crappy storage heaters, they're still (just about) better than nothing.
Nothing else of any great excitement to add at the mo, i'm just really going to try pull out all the stops to have a clean and serene year this year with no cock ups, i might even be brave enough to see about getting me a man as well at some stage (no rush!), i can't be on my own forever and the further behind me i can all this drug shit, the better i will start to feel about myself and that i have something to offer, then just perhaps, somebody might be willing to give me a chance and not see me as high risk - which i know in some respects i am, and i respect that, nobody in their right mind really wants a junkie girlfriend, no matter how good she can cook and iron shirts!
2am - bed time! X
