..or so the saying goes, so here's hoping, cos today, i hit the big 40!!!

I have been away from me blog for awhile again, ot because i have spiralled out of control though, i have just been busy and things are starting to turn around bit by bit!  Firstly i have started work again, nothing heart stopping, just cleaning, infact i'm doing 2 cleaning jobs back to back at the mo which is pretty tiring to say the least, but i was asked back to my holiday home cleaning job for the 3rd year running on the same day i started an evening job at one of the local schools!  it is preferable to be busy though to sitting on my butt 24/7 as i have done for the past few months, just wishing my life away!  Best news of all though is, that hopefully in the pipeline is THE job i have wanted since forever, to be a community support worker in the field of drugs and alcohol!  If this comes off it will actually be with the charitable organisation that employs my support worker!  I have got involved with a user support group forum over the past few months and i have been recognised as having the potential to be a support worker, i certainly have the life experience for it! plus this is what i went back to college to study for a couple of years back, so i have the basic qualifications for it too... i don't want to get my hopes up too much, just incase it doesn't happen, but i have been told by the manager that it is in the pipeline, it's just a case of when as there isn't an actual vacancy as such at the mo - fingers crossed and watch this space!  I so deserve this break i really do, i have worked really hard to maintain my recovery these past few months and it hasn;t been easy at times, my financial situation is still pretty dire and at the root of all my bad days and derpressions, but, as long as i can keep on just doing what i'm doing i know it will come right in the end, I have just made my final payment this month on one of my bigger debts that i have been paying off over the past few years, so there is a light at the end of the tunnel on that front at long last.

Best news ever is my sister is getting her kids back!!  Finally at long last social sevices came to their senses and admitted that they has been a little heavy handed...  she is trying to maintain shared parental responsibility with their father though, as she quite rightly thinks he should continue to be a proper parent after all the years he hasn;t bothered, but already he is off loading them onto her more and more now that he knows that he can, whichi s naughty, but to be expected, he never was much use, so no reason why he would change now..

Time to scoff the rest of my birthday cake, have a glass of wine and then tuck into that HUGE tray of ferrero rocher on my coffee table ..!